Wonder – a feeling of amazement and admiration, caused by something beautiful, remarkable, or unfamiliar.
Wonder – desire to know something; feel curious.
I wonder. You wonder. Do you really wonder? How wonderful! I wonder. You wonder. We all wonder. Life is wonder-ful. So, yesterday was a wonderful session with my beloved teacher on “Wonder” When he started off, I was like what is this all about? I can’t wonder about so many things. Why should I be in a state of wonder about my physical body, people in my life, situations in my life, life in general. But as he went along taking us through the meditation, I started wondering. Miss Light, “do you realise you do wonder a lot. You have wondered a lot all your life. You wonder so much that you have a beautiful, child-like inner world that no one is aware off.” It’s this beautiful, untouched, sacred world that only you and only you wonder about. And I cant remember when I started doing this. Maybe from the time I was a little girl. I was not like any other girl in a party. I was a quiet girl, who sat in the corner at every birthday party wondering, Miss Light, “You’re so cute, so quiet, so boring, so innocent, so naive.” But it’s fine. This is who you’re. This is what makes you “You”. You wonder so much that sometimes you need to tell Wonder to just be, it’s not necessary to wonder so much. You’re fine just the way you’re. These days, I wonder a lot about my life, how my life has unfolded, all the experiences I have had that has shaped my life today, all the ups and downs and everything else in between. I wonder how I have been blessed with wonderful parents, a wonderful husband, a wonderful child, a wonderful teacher, a wonderful sister, a wonderful family and so on and so forth. I wonder why I have never had friends who I can’t live without. I wonder how I tend to get along with all kinds of people, I wonder how I can connect deeply with someone who parties hard to someone who is soaked in spirituality and service. I wonder how I am so easy to please. I wonder how I get bored so easily. I wonder how I am so impatient. I wonder how I don’t need much to survive. I wonder how I am so fearless. I wonder how I am ready to give up everything and just be with myself. I wonder so much. I wonder if it’s all true. I wonder if it’s all a dream. I wonder if my teacher realises the impact he has had on my life. I wonder if I will ever meet him. I wonder about how my life will unfold going forward. I wonder about what am I really meant to do in this world. I wonder why I share so much. I wonder why I like sharing what I have learnt all the time. I wonder how I can go quiet at the busiest of places sometimes. Life is full of wonder. My daughter teaches me that every single day. I want her to learn to wonder at everything she comes in contact with. I want her to wonder and ask questions and she does that. She is full of questions. “Why” questions and I love it. I have given birth to a curious child who is so emotionally intuitive. Maybe because all my life I have been a curious one and I still am. I love learning about people, their stories, their deep dark secrets. I love it when people open up and share their true stories with me. I am blessed. I have been gifted. I wonder. I wonder. I wonder. How wonderful!
Thank you teacher Nithya for reminding me of the child-like wonder I always had in me.
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