This is a question my teacher asked us on our call today. I was for a change not the first to raise my hand. I wasn’t having the best morning. Outwardly I looked great, I was being nice to everyone but inwardly I was going through a lot. But then someone said something and it triggered something in me which I had to share. I didn’t want to share things in theory, I wanted to share what really happened in my life. A real life story on why certain things happened in my life and how it wasn’t entirely me doing it. Yes, I was the one making the decision and I take full responsibility for it but there was some other force at play there which I don’t know. But in the last few months, it’s becoming more and more clear to me that it’s there. I don’t know if I am the only one feeling it and I don’t know how to explain it to someone who hasn’t felt it so sometimes I wonder if I am just saying too much. Maybe I am intimidating people. But that’s not stopping me from sharing and just telling people the truth. The truth of what my life has been and how it’s unfolded to where I am today. Coming back to the question, how do I know what I want is really what I want? I don’t think there is a right or wrong answer here. But what if this higher power knows what I truly want and gives me that in a million different ways sometimes immediately, sometimes after years of suffering. Who is to prove this right? But in the last few months, I have been quite clear of what I want. It’s becoming more clear as time goes by and I am ready to take the plunge. How did I know this? I just knew it. Suddenly there was a huge storm, a wave of emotions, a series of questions, a lot of alone time, a lot of inquiring, asking questions and answering and then in a matter of time things just started falling into place. I wasn’t doing much. Things were just happening quite effortlessly without a lot of fuss and when that happens you know it’s what you really want. You know this is your path and you don’t know what the destination is going to look like but as of now the journey is seeming enjoyable with all its ups and downs. I am learning, I am evolving, and I am being my most authentic self.
Sometimes I am in shock if I am talking my teachers language or am I just feeling that way?
I’ll leave you with a thought that no matter what you’re doing with your life, don’t let the creativity die. You could be doing anything but don’t let your creative self die. And as you do that like I have seen in my case, the magic starts to unfold.
Lots of Love,
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